A Blog about my life and all the things I am: Fat, Fabulous and Size Positive. I have Bipolar II Disorder, I suffer with anxiety and panic attacks, I have Dermatillomania (skin picking), I am a Bookworm, Crafter, Knitter, Sober, Pug Momma, Animal Lover, Christian, Friend, Child Sponsor, Cyclist, Student, Walker, Dreamer and Survivor.
Monday, 7 February 2011
Head full of Fog.
I really feel like I am going through the wringer the last 7-10 days. I can only describe it as feeling like my head is full of fog, I cant seem to attain any clarity of thought whatsoever. Following my GP appointment last Monday it was discussed that a mood diary may be helpful, however I did this for the last 7 days and to be really honest, it made me look so crazy I ripped it up. I kinda feel like one of those silver balls in the pinball machine right now, battered around from pillar to post but achieving nothing. Mental Illness is so terribly draining, I am absolutely exhausted most of the time, I sleep all afternoon almost every afternoon this week and then have to be in bed again by 8pm. It just makes life so hard, its so difficult to function as a useful part of society when these episodes take over.