Wednesday, 15 December 2010

Faith in Myself.

I have been doing some thinking about Faith in the last couple of days and it occurs to me that one area I have lost Faith is in myself.  I am not talking about confidence here or self esteem or anything like that, but simple Faith in me.

Over the years of my mental illness I have looked everywhere for something to put my Faith in, doctors, medication, friends, family, books, groups, counselling, the list goes on!  One area I never tried to put Faith into was myself.

When I look back over some of the things I have survived I really should have more Faith in myself, I mean, I have managed to get through so much with Gods grace, I am still standing today.  I think that over the last few years, and particularly this year Life seems to have kicked all the Faith right out of me.  I have been devastated about the loss of my Mother, blighted with physical illness most of the year, failed to find the right medication to help my mental illness, been diagnosed with Bipolar and hit some pretty severe financial problems, yes this year has dealt me some pretty heavy blows.

I think its time I put just a little Faith in me, I know that if I do, with Gods help I can make it.

1 comment:

  1. Well I love your blog. But I have to be honest with you, I don't think you have lost faith in yourself, you have just been weighed down by circumstance, those people who believe they can't...can't. And although you have struggled this year, you have overcome much as well. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for.

    I know this has been a hard year for you, I am with you believe me I am, mine was nothing to sing about, but think of all the endless possibilities for 2011. And remember this: I know you miss your mother, but she is awful proud of you right now. I love you.