Tuesday, 23 November 2010


Today I want to write about medication.  I havent wrote on my blog for a few weeks, I have to confess I have been concentrating on withdrawing from all my medication.

I began taking Prozac some 15+ years ago.  It has done nothing for me over the years, oh except a 70lb weight gain of course!  Other than that, it has help me in no way at all.  There have been several times over the years that I have tried to withdraw from this medication, but I have always had to go back on it, this bothers me.

When I was prescribed the Lithium along with the Prozac I was so desperate I gave it a go, the combo initially seemed to work, days 3-7 were amazing, but oh.my.goodness day 8+ I began to feel very suicidal.  I quickly decided that I had to withdraw from both medications and quickly.

The trouble is, where does that leave me now?!  I have informed the Psychiatrist that I dont want any more medications and he promptly took me off his patient list!!  That tells me that medication is all he has.

If I could go back in time and have the information I have now, I would have never started taking any medication, I dont believe it to be the answer in my case, I am not saying that this is the case for everyone, but for me it has done diddly-squat!!

There is no one out there who can help me, there are no tablets I can take that is going to make me feel alright, so what do I do now? I dont know.  But I do know that I dont want to take any more medication, for now thats really all I have.


  1. Oh dear!..
    We'll I guess you know what I am going to suggest don't you!?..counselling helped me, maybe just maybe it could help you too... do you still have the details for the rainbow centre? you could give it a go.. at leaset it must be worth a try?... much love and a big hug x x

  2. My brother-in-law committed suicide while on anti-depressants, so needless to say I'm not a fan. I was diagnosed with bipolar two and I take anti-seizure medicine rather than antidepressants. No weight gain...no side affects. I have found that when I treat the anxiety/mania, my depression isn't as low. I often think depression is just my minds way of coping from being UP all the time.

    Counseling also helped me immensely, before and after the meds. I must also say, being a member of AA makes all the difference in the world.

  3. Hi Renacemento...

    FWIW, big hugs to you.

    Have you been able to think through and come up with any sort of approach yet? Are there other doctors you can see, perhaps one that utilizes a more integrative approach?

    I know for me, I've used (and still use) a combination of diet, meds, supplements, talk therapy, bibliotherapy, exercise, massage, CBT, DBT, and journaling/writing. I'm sure you too have tried a variety of combos through the years.

    Hang in there and keep putting one foot in front of the other. You will find a combo that at least eases the pain. I know it sounds trite perhaps, but just keep hanging in. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

    Cyber hugs,
    @1person from Twitter

  4. It's a shame that your psychiatrist took you off his list, and more of a shame that it seems medication was all he had. Have you tried CBT or anything? Sorry i'm a first time reader so I haven't had the chance to see. Take care & Hang in there, medication doesn't have to be the answer.

    Frankie x